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Why can't I leave an issue alone? I am always wanting to fix it......When there is nothing left to fix...... I made a close friend of mine forget the fact we datted.....But now i feel like the one who can't even take the pain...... Because I know that there might always be some thing that i dont want to see..... I am going to be wed in two years and hope to have a baby with him..... But my friends here well slowly leave and forget i am even here.... I am always wanting to help but now i made things worse...... I made him do some thing he didnt want to do and that is just unfair...... He never gotten over me and I wanted to help him to. But now only a forgot memmory still lingers in his heart... He left me for a girl that was closer in his state....who to me acts a little to high for her own being.... I thought we were so close till that happened....... I couldn't stop crying for weeks at a time.... tell I till i found John.....he was there....when i needed to be saved......he knows my dark secret.....So does Brandon....... I lost my bestest friend in a conflict that couldn't be helped....... I end up hurting the ones i care for............ Even the ones i never want to be hurt again..... I want to run and hide from the world again and just go in it like a phase..... " birth, life, death." thats how i just might live for awhile now...looks like i lost my self in the dark.....but....will any one even care to take the time to help me out of it?












Amy Lockheart