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I dont know why this is happening any more.... No one sees my true eyes in the world...John does and i thank him for that!!! Some of my friends know about my eyes and some still doesnt tell what they feel... and thats ok.... because i think h eis moving on and i am glad he is... no more dewelling in the past because it holds nothing. But yeah its ok my eyes start to see nothing but a blurr now a days.... John is taking medicane to heal him but it hurts him and to him and what he told me is that he doesnt want it because he may grow attached to it and depend on it.... It hurts him but helps little to non.... he trys to help me... i love John for that he always knows i am here....We also spend the fourth of july with each other he spend the night over at my house... i long last slept in his arms that night and i have never felt more safe that night.... that is what i want to feel every night... not the feeling that some one is going to come in the window and hurt you... i feel like that alot since last year... but that reason i well never say in a journal because this is some thing i would rather forget..forever... but if you want to know that dark secret then you can pm me about...i dont want other eyes to know the pain i see and feel... my eyes may play tricks in the dark but i always know that John is there to hold me when i need him





Amy Lockheart