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torn together and coming apart
like a disfunctional marrionette
an old toy am I.
like a worn out tire no use am I.
they lie, I die inside, I try to see the light
but I am broken.
like a barbie doll so worn and used forgotten I lay
while the teddy's go out to play.
speachless as I watch them leave me behind.
In my mind
I replay every word trying to figure out where I wnet wrong.
no one wants me, no one needs me.
I am just the object of every pain... to my mother, my father my family and all
my maddy how can you love me at all?
I sometimes see no use in life.. laying awake to afraid
to sleep and Have a night mare full of plague.
you lie... I know... I cant figure out where to go...
tears pattering inside as I wipe and try to hide...
behind the lie of "I'm fine"
I love you so my dear...
cant you hear?
I suppose not... my mouth is stitched
and my hands are tied, behind the lie of
"I'm fine"
so confused so distraught so unused and pukeishly caught
between what I want and need and what I've got...
its to good to be true... wheres the catch?
I hurt you once... you hurt me back... who's turn is it to hurt who?
who's turn is it to laugh?
I dont want it to be this way... but thats how it is
since this is life... and life just is.