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Her

I walk alone
all by my self
no one to love
no one to hold

I hold my tongue
I hold my heart

but it beats so fast everytime I come around you
And I speak so loud when I am near you

Be still my heart
Be quiet my tongue
for the love you long for is poison
and love you long for is death

I walk away
I never speak a word

I tell not a soul of how much I long for you
I lock myself inside the bathroom..

I make a nuse
I pray to god let my death be quick
I climb on the toilet... tears streaming down my face...
If only you knew how much I loved you...

Him


I see you walk by
your head held high
I say nothing
and rush to class

every second of everyday
I wish i could think of something to say

But I cant... not a word comes out right
so I merely dream of holding you every night

I said it wouldnt matter how much i cared for you
you could never love me, the way i love you

I take a quick shower
crying my eyes out when i heard the news
you killed yourself...
I cant help thinking...its all my fault...

I lock the door...
I break the mirror...

I cut my self so deep, the blood spilling from me...
I cant help thinking...
If only you knew...how much I loved you....
In a pool of crimson I slept, swept off to hell, I felt nothing... I was already numb....