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Corrina was going through her slideshow of pictures. I was fine, sitting there and looking for a while, and then she scrolled through some that had Angel in it. I, of course, got really uncomfortable, so I went to sit with Ganon and Neandr took over for me.

Well, she laughs every now and then when Corrina makes a joke, and she tries to sound as much like me as she can (Spirits are an INCREDIBLY touchy subject with Corrina; moreso than I originally thought) so as not to arouse suspicion.

Corrina says that I'm (meaning Neandr) talking like a robot, and that she wants to know why I'm (meaning Neandr) laughing like I (meaning Neandr) am, because it's annoying. So Neandr says "I did not know you found my laughter offensive," and takes off. I hurry up and take control again. Corrina has no idea about that whole little exchange between me and Neandr, so she's still looking at me. She asks "Well are you bored or something? Because we can just go to bed" and I said "No, it's hard to explain. But seeing Angel again, even if it's only in a picture, kinda brings up some bad memories." and she said oh. I said I could explain the laugh thing if she wanted, and she said okay. So here's what I said.

Me: "Well... her name's Neandr, and you said her laugh was annoying, which offended her."
Corrina: "What?"
Me: "She's... another spirit. They can take control of my body when I can't handle it."
Corrina: "Oh...kay..." *turns back to the computer screen*
Me: "I told you it was difficult to explain."
Corrina: "Uh-huh."
Me: "You're just gonna ignore it, aren't you?"
Corrina: "Yeah."
Me: "Why? Does it bother you that much?"
Corrina: "I just don't want to think about it in this house. I'm gonna go take a shower."

Okay, um, what? I know I'm the one that sounds insane here, but what's the house got to do with anything? Will she feel better talking about it if we're sitting on the front porch? I mean, seriously! At least one is ALWAYS with me. Why would it make any difference where? Dear God, but six of the Family came with me to the gym that evening! She didn't have a problem then!

Ranting aside, I really don't see what difference it makes. They're a part of my life. And I opened up that part, the most dear part of my heart to her, and she's just pretending it doesn't exist. She completely shuts down at the mention of anything related to the spirit-world. And I try not to push it because I like her and I still want to be friends with her. But this is coming between us, and it's coming up big. I don't know what to do about it. I mean, I wanted to tell her about this because I wanted her to know. It means so much to me, and the fact that she's just going on the way she is (and now won't even look at me) really hurts. It's like being stabbed, only less physical. I just want to go curl up in Ganon's lap and never leave. Let someone else control my body forever. I just want to stay with them. Because if I'm going to be treated like an alien or a leper just because I'm connected to a different part of life than most other people, then what else am I supposed to do?

Friendly advice would be incredibly helpful right about now. Pm me please.