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I am feeling overwhelmed again. Sometimes, everything just floods over me and I feel like I can't move ... This is probably some form of panic attack ... I feel really awful right now ... I had to deal with some scary stuff today, and I feel sort of emotionally raw right now. I don't know what's wrong with me - if I do some kinds official paperwork, I remain stressed out and frightened for hours afterwards. Heck, sometimes even talking about that kind of stuff leaves me feeling like I can't breathe for awhile afterwards. I feel horrible right now, and I'm not sure if anything can calm me down.

Money I can't pay to creditors, unemployment denied, so many, many phone calls to make ... I can't think ... My head hurts ... my heart hurts ... everything is so frightening and impossible ... I just want to hide from it all. Too much at once.

I feel like my nerves have been scrubbed with sandpaper ... just emotionally raw ...

I don't know what to do to calm down. All I can do is pray ...

Things are worse right now, now that all the paperwork is so especially important and scary ... I can't handle it ...