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My head is so messed up right now, I dunno what to do. There are a million things in my mind, and I dunno how to deal with them. Not only am I getting weaker physically by the second, I'm also losing my mind emotionally. Yes, I love Steven with all of my heart, and I will never leave him... but there's just this guy that's caught my attention. I just met him about a week ago, and he reminds me so much of Dwight... I just feel this connection between us but, I dunno. I dunno if I like him or if I'm just being confused about everything. I'm happy with Steven, and I refuse to lose what we have for being this stupid over everything. But I can't help but wonder if I'm doing something wrong by not telling him. It doesn't seem like that big of a deal, but is it? I dunno. My head hurts and nothing makes sense right now. I should be getting to bed soon, but I don't want to go sleep. I suppose it's normal for this to happen, but... Meh, I dunno. I'm afraid I'm going to ******** up and do the same thing again, except this time instead of Dwight do it to Steven. I want to see him again... Steven, not Dwight. Well, Dwight too, but... ugh. I want to be in Stevens' arms and just forget about everything. I won't get to see him till Saturday though... unless he comes visit me tomorrow night. I hope so, I want to talk him into cuddling with me for a few hours, but since he'd be out of work, he'd probably want to get some sleep. Meh, I want to cut but I'm not going to. There's my rant, I guess.
 Annabella Goddess Of Ice · Wed Sep 23, 2009 @ 06:10am · 0 Comments |
