stare The thing is. My parents are breaking up. and. I really want to vent to somebody, but. don't want to bug my friends. So here I am Gaia. Ranting about my parents to a screen and keyboards.
stare You know, when you tell the same story again, it gets really irritating? No matter how good it is? That sometimes. You know what's gonna happen and it's getting repetitive ? I don't know how, but I really wanna tell my mom, her stories about dad, are over told. Everyday ( or 2:3 days ) after we eat dinner and dad's not home. We watch TV. And. Every one of those nights, my mom always finds something to talk about. And I'm just waiting for her to go " Like your dad for example... " and then she sets off. Talking s**t about my dad - exaggerated x100 - and it's the same things she says. Over. And over. Like, really. I care, but. When you talk so much about it like your about to divorce, then, just fcuking do it. Gee. Talking too much about whatever to the point when people feel like yuhr whining - which she sounds like she is - is REALLY frustrating to live through.
stare " You're dad is so spoiled. He was always spoiled by his mom! He was playing computer and told his mom when she wanted him to help him cook he was studying computer science, and he was 25! And now he thinks that after he married me, I'mma take the place of his mom, and pamper him to death! " Yaddy yaddy yadda. " I should of known, when I was about to marry him, my mom told me that he was a spoiled boy and that we'll have trouble. I told her no, if he loves me he can change. Boy, I was so stupid back then, do you know, no matter how much a boy promises you that he will change, he won't ? And he comes back breaking your heart again and again. " Sad? Yes. Now try that. Every 2/3 days .
stare What's even worse, is that I have to hear it more than just when she talks to me. She says this speech to EVERYONE. Once, her childhood friend in Boston came up to visit, and she decided to spend a day with her. So she dragged me along 'coz I knew their daughter. Anyways, on the drive to this place she was gonna take 'em to tour and stuff. She starts off ranting about my dad. ER. Okay? I thought these guys came up to have fun. Not to be mellowed out by their irrationally emotional friend. And the worst thing is. During these speeches. She always include me. No matter how big of the topic or small, she's always says these cheesey things. Yeah, I used to feel bad. But now. I roll my eyes.
stare Like, why are you including me anyways? I already discussed that when you two split up, I'll go with you. I had to take the stupid job to talk to dad about it, because you don't want to see him. Is she telling me all this bullshit to make me pity her? That, she's scared that dad's gonna talk me into hating her? She's always accusing dad of that. Giving me money to buy stuff, or whatever. She says he's trying to win me over with money. " Her money," hey, last time I checked. We were a family. And whatever you threw into the middle, belonged to all of us. Okay, not me. But both of them. But 'coz of the separation, she's deciding to take credit for the money she makes for the family. But really, if you every thought, this was a family. Does it fcuking matter? No.
stare My dad's not any better. I'll vent about that another day.
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I have my issues. and I'm not trying to be rude or obnoxious, I just really needed to vent. And if this offended you in any way, I'm sorry. But it really was your choice to read this.
I have my issues. and I'm not trying to be rude or obnoxious, I just really needed to vent. And if this offended you in any way, I'm sorry. But it really was your choice to read this.
Thursday, October 08, 2009
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