Oh lonely days. I have never felt so alone, yet, I have never been closer to my mother. I have lost, I think, two friends, both of them I have never thought I would lose. Ever. But I think they are gone. I don't know what to do anymore, but my mom's been more understanding and helpful than I ever thought as well. I guess life is full of surprises, good and bad. I hate the bad ones, though. I miss my boyfriend so badly, I still don't know what to do if and when he ever gets back. I had this....sudden urge to call him, like someone told me to call him and I actually got a hold of him. He says he hasn't been on...I don't know if he's lying. I can't tell...but if it is true, then someone has been on his account. But I talked to his sister and neither she nor anyone else in the family has been on and no one knows his passwords. I don't know what to do. But he still has a lot to answer for, like why has he been forgetting me....
I saw New Moon this morning and as I watched it, I noticed there was a lot of correlation between my boyfriend and I and Bella and Edward. We both were left when they had promised to never do that. We both feel the same, though I dare not go to her extent. But it still hurts. A lot. But Edward had good intentions when he left her. I don't think my boyfriend does. I don't know what he is thinking, but I know it's not me. Edward returns to Bella, desperate and never wanting to leave her side again. I doubt that will happen to me with my boyfriend. He seems content to not talk to me or anything....
We will see....you never know.
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