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in times of loss and sarow im shut out in the cold to make it on my own in the darkness i see nothing no love no hope just that i don't matter i want to know if some one cares if i make it through the nigh if my heart stops and if blood runs from my body but no one dose no ever will so stopping and looking at what i have i see nothing i see people that think they know who i am but their have bairly scraped the surface my eyes have never been looked in they show it all how long i have waited for this to stop for the pain to end and for the world to be a kinder place but they also show that the mask i wear has never been taken off not for one person and all that have alomst seen through it left me and are never coming back they wouldn't fight for me they wouldn't see the new pain pushing my mask they can't see the crack in the middel they can't see that there names are scared in my arms and on my heart they will never know more then they already do i lie more then i tell the truth because with the truth i would never have had "friends" im not looked on by god he left me just like every one else has people i held dear and thought were true have found someone new it shouldn't suprise me when they do but it dose every time no matter how i try it is always my fault for everything bad
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