Well ive really messed things up this time. I mean really really. And its all my fault it really is. I hate myself so much, i did something so terrible last night and now Prince Charming really hates me. Guys i dont know what to do! I cried all lastnight trying to text him but he just wouldn't text back! I went into school putting on a smile thinking of him all the time trying to hold back the tears. When i finally get a text off him its horrible he said if hes on msn later it wont be for me. Im a b***h guys i kill everything i love nothing ever works properly. Always the bridesmaid never the bride. Who am i kidding? No one is ever gonna love me. Love is amazing untill you go and mess it up. Then you loose all faith in ever wanting or having it again. Its sickening to the stomach just thinking of my name not spelling his backwards anymore. It does you know our real names spell eachother backwards like we were made for eachother.
I hope i come back on here tomorrow and say im such a idiot and that we are fine and we pulled through it like we always do but i dont think it will after what i did Today i was hoping id slip and bang my head on the ice and knock myself out but nothing goes the way you want it too.
Message to girls youve been warned. When you fall in love and its for real you get to used to your surroundings and when they are taken away forever its so hard to pick up the peices. My hearts breaking but ill still love him with all the peices.