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i had a deep break down. ture story

i run up to my room slaming the door. i fall crosee leged leaning forward crying . i start ball snot and tears drip from my face. i feel a hand on my shoildure.
Kumori/me: y does the unrives hate me i cant even talk to angel my moms evil and a minllion other things and im so weak. my soul is amost dead y fight to keep it alive now.
i feel louie pushes me slowly back against the wall.
i faintly i hear louie speak
Louie: baby plz hold on
Kumori:i know i have to hold on for angel.
Louie: plz dont
i feel him hug me
Louie: plz darling dont be like this and u need to eat or youll get sick plz eat.
i pick up my fork eating my noodles with gray i get to my meat.
a tear runs down my face
Kumori: i cant eat this is going to make me sick
Louie: baby its ok
kumori: thats all i can eat and i got so much home work
louie: i wish u had angel her.
Kumori; mer too
he sceatchs behide my right ear.
kumori: u know he dosent trust me any more it seems.
Louie; o
Kumori: i want him to tuch me so bad ive him just kisesing m now would make me feel a little happer.
kumor: i use to alwys want all this rommatic stuuff fanty and shite but now i just want him to tuch me. thanks for talken i nee to talk
Louie: give it to me
ihold out my hanfd droping a nail knife
Louie: u know your not sopostto cut yiour self
kumori:i know i ii didnt draw blood but still . i love angel
ouie: then he i your reson to live
heloks me in the eye
Louie yells: and dont u ever ******** cut your self again or ill tell himabout your trying to cut your wrist. your to preety and to good of a woman to do this and u cant give up on angel jut likwe that.
louie: i c how much u love him so atlease do it for him
kumori; ok i will
he sets next to me puling out a smoke rubing my head
Louie; ever thing will be fine ok utoo love each other so much u just got to think postive k.
kumori; ok ill try but it uselly doesnt wok and thanks for talking to me.