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I see now that I look at my image and it doesn't compare to most girls.
They have the perfect body, smile, things that most guys find eye-catching, whatever.

I may not have those kinds of assests, but I felt like it didn't matter.
As the tears roll down the eyes that stare blankly at most, its just sad.

I hurt at the sense of knowing that even with just a simple comment on telling someone that their sexy, ?

It hurts that you could blankly say those kinds of things behind my back and keep them from me.

I admit that I am insecure, paranoid, and most of all sensitive to most things.

I can't change who I am, after all it is me.

Plus it doesn't help that my mind is full of crap and nothing good really comes out of it. Yes, I have negative thoughts most of the time, even though my body says otherwise.

I just wish I could go back in time to those days where "image" didn't matter.

I am who I am and I possibly can't change that.