You treat every day like you never lived, you treat your life as a joke. How is it that when you fall they rise? Why is your life so useless? You lay in your bed listening to Talor Swift, because it makes you feel better, as you sing along to Forever and Always the piano version, I sigh. I can't get you off your bed, I feel partly distroyed. Part of me is lost. Part of myself is gone. I feel like crying as I watch you die in front of me with your head in my hands and as I stroke your hair you feel like screaming from frustration. I try to make it better with a small touch of the back of my hand on your cheek. You try to smile but can't, your pain has grown too much to let you go. As you don't eat, your ribs begin to show, you look like a beaten dog. Should I hold you close, should I settle things and help you with everything? I begin to cry with you head on my lap, tears streaming down my cheeks and my face sad with emotion. You bring your hand up and let it push my hair behind my ear. All thise times you and I talked, I thought I helped you. I thought the past was gone. But seeing you dieing before me, it is enough to make me shake. I can't stand to see you rest when I have to be awake. I can't stand the thought of you gone and I have to stay. You take that last breath and shut your eyes tight. I kiss your cheek and watch you fall into darkness. I want to come too. I think of the plan for a moment and shake my head. I know I have to stay as you go. Your face loosens and I sob with my head on your chest. Why did you leave me? I thought you were going to stay. You never ate. You warned me, and I rest assured that I would save you. I will never see that face again. I will miss you always. You heart skipps a beat and then stops suddenly, I check your pulse and tears fill my eyes. you are gone from me forever.
Jimy is back · Sat Mar 06, 2010 @ 10:32pm · 0 Comments |