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He said I could never creep him out
And I believed him
He said he would like me no matter what
But right now he can't even text back
I wonder if I take these pills
If the pain will just disappear
I wonder if I cut my wrist if the physical will win over the emotional
I wonder if this will ever end

So I said that it was different
That I actually glimpsed a moment of pure bliss in the future
I know that's a long ways away
But in my mind
My deranged little mind
Where my thoughts run wild
And my mood is never stable
I don't think of time as something of importance
I think of it as a measurement I can ignore
And I guess that screws me up.
I told him it seemed like we were married
We've been together a week
He was holding me in his kitchen
We were watching kittens playing and we talked
And to me in my world
He was holding me in the day
And the air around was warm
Instead of kittens running around outside of that glass
It was kids
And he was mine
We were happy
I shook my head
It was snowing
I was hot
He was there
And those were cats
The outside was dark
And I said something I shouldn't have
I just tried to run
And he never chased
I guess it shows something
I really must have said the worst thing ever.