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Its been one of those weeks where you just keep going not because you want to, but because you really have no choice in the matter. I keep pushing forward, with no drive or ambition to do it.

Its Friday, I should be happy but I feel nothing. I'm not depressed, I just feel nothing connected to the only day in which I can actually relax.

It will be over in 24 hours anyway, so it doesn't really matter.

I also have a weird feeling that one of the people that calls me "their best friend" is not really what they claim to be. It just bothers me a bit, like a gnawing sensation in the pit of my stomach. It just shows me that I cannot trust this person as much as I did in the past, in fact its not healthy to trust anyone. I may have close friends, but I cannot trust them. Things change, people change and I'm not going to let my trust in them hurt me because of those things.

One kept on going on about traveling as a group across Europe, only to change her mind and go with her boyfriend because he'd pay for it.

Another said that she was only friends with someone because she pitied her, she had changed her mind on that knowing that this person is someone I'd like to leave for dead in the middle of the road.

And another said that she would no longer talk to a friend that had betrayed everyone, but I have the feeling that is no longer the case.

Of course, everything is not about me, but its just annoying to see people going off and doing these things with little to no regard to what the consequences may be. Or they just think I would never find out. I have ways of finding out a lot of things, most of them completely accidental. It just hurts my trust in these people and makes me wonder if I should continue on trusting them in the way I did before. I trust everyone to an extent, but once that trust has been hurt in some way, it takes even longer to return.

I can swallow most of this, it doesn't mean I can stomach it.

Now I feel a tad depressed.

Funny.