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And I know there's people that read my journal because it friggin' shows me.

If you read the private thoughts of someone else, you are sometimes going to find things you don't want to see. You may find things you don't understand.

If you're someone that dislikes me intensely and you're stalking my journal, you totally deserve to see what you saw. Yeah, I know, my journal is published for anyone to see that wants to see. But guess what? You don't have to see it unless you go looking for it, eh?

I know that the events and feelings I describe are only my own personal experiences and thoughts. So, dear readers, keep that in mind when you're reading. I know that there's always the chance that I'm wrong. But I can only speak from my experiences. If I only knew one side of a person, if I was only shown the not so great side of someone, then I can't help that that's all I know.

I could set this journal to private or friends only and prevent anyone seeing that might dislike what they saw. But I won't. Because if you're going to come here and read my thoughts, if you're going to sneak around like a thief in the night, then you deserve to see it.

If you want to actually talk instead of reading the random thoughts that cross my mind and get set down in my journal, you're more than welcome to send me a message or comment the entry.

I allowed myself to be put on the defensive for far too long. And, when you're on the defensive, you seem guilty of everything, even to yourself. I won't be on the defensive any longer.

I'm not perfect, but I'm not what you think I am. ********. You don't even know what I am. No more than I truly know what you are. At least I tried to understand you and didn't try to just throw my opinion at you and stuff you into what I thought you were, what you should have been, what you were, by God, supposed to be according to what I think of you.

God ******** help me for having an open mind.

So, yeah, don't read my ******** journal unless you want to see s**t you didn't really want to see.

If you're reading it because you can't let it go, you deserve what you get.