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Vacation
So, I want to go ahead and detail everything that happened on my wonderful vacation. But I'm too lazy, so I'm going to point out some highlights. :3

When I first saw him walk in the door of the bus station, I couldn't move; I was so happy to see him that I forgot how to use my legs. I told him this. :3

We took a nap together one day. That was bliss. Pure bliss. Especially since he's the one that initiated it.

I thieved me one of his shirts. It doesn't smell like him all that much, like the red one does, but it's funny and I like it just the same. I'll probably give it back, though. I don't know if he wanted me to take it. Regardless of him giving it to me.

I ate about 7 meals the entire six days I was there. Just couldn't get comfortable enough to go rifling through their kitchen, despite Eric's reassurances. Sorry guys :/
(Found out I can go 26 hours without food if I'm distracted enough, though!)

Was sad about sleeping on the couch for two days. I really really wanted to be upstairs with him. It smelled nice and it was warm with him and it made me happy to open my eyes and see him there.

The night before I left was wonderful. Just to spend that private time with him, knowing that his roommates were letting us have our moments together.

I hope he really CAN love me someday.

I'm confused about the conversation he and I had... if he wanted to be "just friends", why would he be reaching out to me? Maybe he really is just trying to get comfortable with physical contact... I don't want to think of him as just humoring me, though. I hope that he wanted it too.

It made me really happy when he was playing with my hair and running his fingertips on my side and back. It was an intimate moment.

He taught me how to play Magic! GREEN FOREVAH!!!!

God, watching Viva Pinata for sixteen hours straight gets boring xD

Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog! Watched it with him! It was GREAT!

Kicked his a** a few times at Soul Callibur 2! He kicked mine a few times in Soul Callibur 4, though. I still held my own! Talim's the greatest! Playing video games with him was awesome. We were just joking around and laughing and having fun.

He remembered that I'm smart :3 He also said that he likes talking with me because he and I can have an intelligent conversation, but he won't expect what I have to say, which doesn't normally happen.

We had a lot of fun. And I'm really really glad. (Well, I had a lot of fun at least...)

Got along with Louis! It's a miracle!

Made friends with Eric and made him a bit of my confidante. It was accidental, but it's well-placed trust. I can tell.

Noah's such a dork! He'll randomly interpretive dance and he makes odd concoctions to eat xD Grapefruit soda and milk? Really?

It was WAY too damn hot xD I sweated like hell. I think I lost weight from it!

He may not think so, but he's absolutely gorgeous naked. He really is. Takes my breath away.

He said I looked like something out of a painting when he saw me unclothed for the first time. That made me kinda shy and fluttery x3

No, I didn't end up needing the birth control. But hey, better safe than sorry.

I gave him all my video games, except my DS and DS games. I love my things. I really do. I don't like to share too often. But I like the idea of them being put to use much more than the idea of them rotting in a garage. So I think they'll get some good use out of them. And Hawksley seemed to like them. xD

Went on a date for the first time ever! Hawksley's brother Max showed up with his girlfriend and took Hawksley and I out to lunch, so it was kinda a double date. :3 I was really embarrassed and reserved (I don't do well in foreign environments...), but it was the fact that we were even there that made me happy.

He called me "Honey" once. x3 That was before the talk, but still.

He gave me a necklace with a little turtle on it. It shines light blue and pink in the light. It's so so pretty, and I couldn't believe he got it for me. I LOVE jewelry of almost any kind. I wear the necklace every day.

Had a bit of an emo moment at one point. I feel like I'm all alone, and there's no one I can truly trust. Hawksley says I can trust him (And I want to, believe me!), but I don't know him all that well. I want to develop that trust in him, though.

Saw his art! He's got such a cute style!


Overall, just had fun. Enjoyed my time there, relaxed, bought them pizza on my last day there, you know. Just... fun. Really really enjoyed it. And I want to do it again soon. But I might not be able to for a while. At least, not until November. If I want to spend his birthday with him, anyway. Damn Job Corps. ._.

In other news, when I got back, all my things that I had left here were packed up. Some misunderstanding or other. Really sucks. And I can't have any of it back until Monday :/

Also lost a lot of my faith in Nettie. She feels under appreciated, but I feel taken for granted. I've tried to convey that to her before. But when I lost my temper... well, that was it. I couldn't do anything but yell. Yeah, she should've remembered my birthday, but hell. I've only known her for seven years.

That's a happy note, by the way: Nobody remembered my birthday. Nobody bothered to call or text or anything. The only one that remembered was Hawksley. And I'm pretty sure that's because I was right next to him when he woke up, so he was forced to remember.

Okay, I'm wrong. Vincent remembered. The only person I know, a man I haven't even talked to in at least a month and a half, remembered my birthday. My own father didn't even call. Sadness.

So, reiterating my enjoyment of the week. Tired now, need sleepage. G'night 8D






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Tropical Dreams
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commentCommented on: Sat Aug 28, 2010 @ 09:24am
Wow I'm so happy you finally found someone. Just be careful not to move too fast, that results in heartache.
But still happy! I did remember your Bday I just don't celebrate them you know? lol.
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