I really don't get it. I've busted my a** being the best girlfriend I can be: honest, loyal, caring, loving, understanding. Yet every good aspect seems to be overlooked and every bad one is magnified. Everything I do is wrong! How is it that a word can create such an effect. I name the people I'm with when I'm around girls, and when there are boys in the group I only say that I'm with friends. I'm freaking tired of discussing this stupid subject. THERE'S NO REASON FOR SAYING FRIENDS. Usually when I'm with my friends (boys), I'm with a group of people. I don't want to go one by one naming everybody. But NO, he's not satisfied with the only reason that is true. No. Apparently, mentally if I say friends it means that I'm hiding something. There's nothing in the world that makes me angrier than being accused of something that isn't true.
Right now, I feel like my heart got cut open and it feels like it's scraped. Totally hurt... Having a long distance relationship is the hardest thing ever, but if somebody else reads this: Don't get in a long distance relationship with a person that has been cheated on. They're over paranoid and it breaks you. You'll think he's over it, because you've been such a good girlfriend, but no... They'll keep bringing it up. They try to find any discrepancy, invent it to try and protect themselves. But all it does is hurt the other person, I will keep fighting for this LOVE, but I get miserable some times. How to pass on the full message that you're not the whore his ex was?? How many times will I have to keep accounting reality?
It's been a whole day of discussing this and now he wants to extend it until tomorrow. I can tell that tomorrow isn't going to be a good day... cry
Right now, I feel like my heart got cut open and it feels like it's scraped. Totally hurt... Having a long distance relationship is the hardest thing ever, but if somebody else reads this: Don't get in a long distance relationship with a person that has been cheated on. They're over paranoid and it breaks you. You'll think he's over it, because you've been such a good girlfriend, but no... They'll keep bringing it up. They try to find any discrepancy, invent it to try and protect themselves. But all it does is hurt the other person, I will keep fighting for this LOVE, but I get miserable some times. How to pass on the full message that you're not the whore his ex was?? How many times will I have to keep accounting reality?
It's been a whole day of discussing this and now he wants to extend it until tomorrow. I can tell that tomorrow isn't going to be a good day... cry
