Another day.I'm not feeling good.I'm tired and need sleep.Why the heck am I so ******** up?Nothing's goin' right,I feel hated.I miss my old mates,my old friends,the old group I used to hang out with.I actualy kinda felt like it's okay being myself with them.Now I feel like I lost myself,I don't know how I am.I tried so many times to be different, beacause I hated myself,disliked my way of being,and now I just don't know how I am or how I want to be.It's like I have no personality,I don't know what to do.
Alter seams to like me.She is a nice person and she makes me feel good.Like I'm not that bad,like it's right being 'myself'.I like how she trusts herself.
I think i like a guy at school.Nothing important,just something superficial.I'd need something like that,a superficial relationship in which we don't love eachother too much.This way no one gets hurt and we have fun together.
This thoughts i write in the journal...they really are stupid.I probably should remove the journal from my profile.I'm too lazy to do it.
By the way,I am eating again.I had a period in which I just didn't wanted to eat.I eat,but only a bit.Now I feel like I eat too much.
That's all.
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