We all need to vent sometimes. I really hate doing it because what's the point in telling someone else my problems. What are they going to do? Suggest something or magically solve it? No one helps me out yet I'm willing to help them. People are selfish. They don't actually care they just pretend to care so they aren't alone.
How ******** up is that? That no one in the world actually cares about you. Apparently you can tell a lot by the looks of a person but honestly anyone who's ever tried to do that to me has been wrong. Recently someone tried to read me based on my facial features. It was all wrong. "Shy, nice, against war, not going to college." None of that's true. War's a nature thing. We're always in war. With ourselves, with others, with countries, with nature, with everything. I'm not nice, I'll tell you to ******** off in a second. Not going to college? How do you tell that from someone's face? What the ********? I'm going to college so I can spend my life doing the same routine every day.
So what is my problem? People. People are the worst. Grown ups and kids alike reject the intelligent kids from the time they are recognized. One study even said the kids who are the smartest are usually the ones prone to suicide. No wonder the nations' I.Q. levels are dropping so quickly. We're basically killing off those who have enough intelligence.
Another problem I have is the STUPID kids. The ones who actually shun the intelligent ones. It's natural to hate or fear something you aren't and get jealous. I get jealous because I'm not one of those people. The problem with intelligent people is the fact they see the world differently from the idiots. The idiots see a blissful, opportunity filled world with beautiful people and caring souls. What do the intelligent people see? Cruel, evil, wicked and selfish people who don't give two shits about anyone who can't think inside this tiny little box we call society. You show stupid people a movie about intelligent people getting bullied, they go "aww.. that poor person." But in reality, they do the same damn thing to whomever shows more intelligent than them. They don't see anything wrong with it because they're too stupid.
So.. What's wrong with humanity? We're too blind. We believe in equal rights for everyone yet we restrict people because of their lifestyle, intelligence and race. We even pull the "race-card" out whenever we can to get s**t.
My third problem is relationships. One, I dislike the word relationship. People automatically think you mean dating. Relationships are friends, family, and dating. Relationship is your status with someone. Within my family, I'm the odd one. I have a weak relationship with my family. I stopped dating when I couldn't help but get annoyed by everyone near me. I dislike having friends because there's a chance one of them will "love" me and want to have a deepened relationship with me. I gave up on them as soon as they started talking about things I wondered when I was in 6th.
For now, I've lost faith in humanity. I'd much rather die alone with a thousand cats in some piss-smelling house than live with another human being. I know what their capable of, I have seen what they do to intelligent people. It's sick. Yet all I can do is b***h and moan. I'm bitter and disgusted. Saddened by this life yet I'm too much of a p***y to end it. Or is that just hope? Hope that maybe one day I won't be annoyed by someone, that I can learn to love, that I can be normal. But I lost hope a long time ago. Just like everyone before me.
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