Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

So Friday?
Dunno if I even want to see you.

Now that I really see you,
See how jaded,
how damaged,
how sick you really are,
I dunno? Not sure if I can bare to be around you.

I mean, you're still human.
You're technically still Luis.
Just a new perspective of you.

I don't think its bad to see you in this light.
Honestly, I'd rather see you this way than how I saw you before.
Before, you were something good, maybe even great,
Now you're just a bittersweet realization.

But one that needed to be made.
No regrets.

So much is going on.
I feel like I don't even know anything anymore,
So disconnected from the people that are supposed to be the closest.

But then again,
I keep pushing everyone away.
I just want them to prove they need me,
Like I know I need them...

Because when I prove I need someone,
It's not good enough and I'm not sure how much harder people can expect you to try.

Give it your all,
but nothing in return.

Sick people.
Sick like you.
Sick like me.

Imagine if we HAD dated.
God, a disaster that would have been.
Glad I was a wine too refined for you.
Definitely proud of that.

I've decided, once again,
Not gonna date anyone this year.
Even though last year I technically dated you,
It was for a shitty week.

So I guess I've been single for a whole year,
If we wanna be technical, anyway.

******** IT.
SINGLE LIFE.

i'm really starting to hate how pathetic people become when they date others anyway.

ALL OF YOU
are ******** pathetic.
Grow some balls, please and thank you.

You deserve so much better than what you're sitting through,
But you don't ******** care because "companionship" is oh so important.

I'd rather die alone.
In fact, I intend on it.

Everyone. So ******** useless.
Call me bitter, but at least I mean what I say.