I try so hard but I never seem to get anywhere. Why are people so mean ... If I had stuff to give away then I would do it, but I've been questing for an Item for a while now and the money I have, I only got it by selling my stuff. In a quest anything will help but people seem not to even care. It's sad that there are soooo many people out there but most without a heart. It's like everything I try to do fails. And I start to feel worse then I already felt. My life seems to be nothing but a big quest. I get so close to my goals but then people stomp all over me and beats me back down or they raise the price of things making it seem like an unreal dream .... I feel less then nothing at this point of my life. I can't even believe it! I was so happy and nothing could rip me out of the sky... but now I've fallen back down to earth, and I don't even fell like trying anymore. I'm soo worried about what might happen, and that I might fall back into my bad habits. Alot of people on gaia that I came across like cutting them selfs and show it to everybody like there happy that they do it. I never wanted anyone to know .. I'm left with all the scars , and the feelings that I can't live my life without doing it. I did good for so long, and I worked my a** off to have things and to help my family and friends. But I need help .... And no one seems to care ....
Nezumi 3 · Thu Mar 30, 2006 @ 12:00am · 0 Comments |