I feel so numb ... but there still is pain .. How will I be able to move on from this .. .. I felt like I belonged somewhere but where did that feeling go? Everytime I come back to this place my piece of mind seems to disappear and those horrible memories fall back into place ... Am I losing my mind or am I trapped in my mind. My own thoughts can bring harm and so much pain back to life .... I want to forget everything .... but yet I'm still trapped ..... Why .... Why won't the past die!!!! Why am I forced to relive it in my mind and it slips out throught the cracks and for everyone to see .... but they don't like that part of me .... they can't believe that it's me ...... Nor can I ... If I could reprogram my mind and take out all the nightmares and horrible memorys then I would .... I hope as time goes They will fade .... but it seems impossible .... I pray that they will and that I will be free from it all and from myself.
Nezumi 3 · Mon Jun 19, 2006 @ 11:11pm · 0 Comments |