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Mira and Jen talk about Derick
Jenna says "You're lucky. you know who your real dad is" and Kelly replies sadly "That's what people tell me. -sad sigh- but it's hard. I want to call Derick dad, I do love him like family, but it just doesn't feel right. It's hard to explain, but it's like...Derick wasn't the one who drove me to ballet or soccer practice and picked me up from school and dropped off my lunch when I forgot it and taught me to drive. Sure, he wanted to but...you know he just wasn't there, no matter how much he wanted to be. It wasn't his fault, you know....but still... Well, like I said, it's hard to explain." Jenna: "Yeah, I get it, but Mira... Have you ever told him all this? You say it doesn't feel right but sometimes things don't seem right until you try hard enough." Mira: "You try first." (Depending on the mood after this either 1. Mira walks away away and Jenna stays on the beach until Miguel or Joey comes to get her or 2. Jenna would be silent for a few seconds, shocked that this nice and sweet girl would be so cold about something, and then kind of bite back on her anger and go "I'll pretend you didn't say that... Um... Anyway... If we're striking deals here, then you have to try with Derick if I try with mine. That is what you said right? If I try first, you have to try right after me." So if Mira stayed and Jenna said that Mira would kinda look over with this "not amused" look and sigh, kinda like not upset but more.....tired. She's heard this all her life, everyone says the same thing. So she's just kinda not really taking it in, you know what I mean? Like subconsciously blocking whatever they are saying. So when Jenna says that Mira has to try after her she'd do that that I said first, sigh and give her that look and shake her head. "I'm not going to do something I can't just because of a deal like that. If someday the chance comes then maybe. Maybe I'll be able to talk to him about it. But this isn't something you can force. If I walked in there right now and tried to talk to him, I know it would turn into an argument and I'd say things I'd regret. I love Derick. I don't want to hurt him. So no, I'm not going to try to force something like that because of a deal. I'm not going to risk hurting him more for that. Sorry." (none of that said in anger but more like, sadly.)
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