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my wonderful people who i love so much, how are u all?? *giggles*
Ok so u would not believe what happened to me yesterday, I didnt get the fee waver like the other post said, I got "sick" and to top it all off, my bf breaks up with me, isnt it all grand oh did i not mention that i had to go to work sick 2................. anyway so basically he gets pissed for reasons that u all know of already and i wanted to kill myself since everything was going wrong from me yesterday but i decided not too...... actually its becuz Ds ( u all know who he is, *waves* hello love) helped me out, talk to me , told me it wasnt worth it, the whole convo. anyway he called me up *gets happy that he called her* and we chated and i was HAPPY, he helped me alot and he is always there for me and he loves me(and i love him 2, im probably making him blush right now while he is reading this) ^.^ so I am ok thanks to him.So my friends know whats up, and they are saying that if there is nothing to hide that there is no reason of why he doesnt take it(ya know what i mean by "take it" wink , and that his pride is probably whats getting in his way, well guess what if there was doubt about us being together even before the test thing came up, and we had talked about it before and he still feels the way he does then what can i say, i guess 4yrs. just disappeared and it was all for nothing becuz i do not get it, what is so wrong about me, and why are we so diff. that he wanted to break up with me even tho i am taking this as we are on a stand stil......... becuz he said he needed time, time for what i dont know becuz i dont know whats running thru his mind, but u know what, ill give him his time becuz i care for him and i never thought this would have happened but it has and now it has me thinking if we are right for each other........... and i have Ds and neo and all of my friends there for me, and ill get thru this, i was up late crying and depress............ but im sick of crying and being depress for some stupid s**t like this................
>.> so if he wants to leave me thats on him, i can not change his mind, and it looks like it wasnt ment to be...............

thats all i have to say *waves, kisses*
I love you guys and ill talk to u when i can........ >.> i figure out a way to talk to u Ds and well my other friends, um..... ill see u at school or something

*looks in her pocket* hey i still have my cell phone ok ok ok umm........ i guess today is the last day that i can talk to u ya then........ so um.... Im me or call me up ok ^.^ ill be fine..........I hope........ *walks away thinking there is 2 much drama in my life, then puts on that song "no more drama" and starts dancing* stare stare