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Ok.........*sighs* so i was talking to my "bf" alil yesterday, after the whole "break up" thing, and he comes crying to me saying he is sorri and so on.....fine...he said he couldnt see himself without me and that he is an a** for hurting me for no reason confused ... stare really there was no reason stressed .......... anyway so he comes and ask if i will forgive him and be his wife again......... stare this is where i come in and im thinking to myself if i say yes what are the chances that he will do it again sad ......... and if i say no am i losing someone i care for very much, and love sad ............. the thing is, was that i couldnt make up my mind, I do love him, we have been together for 4 yrs. but all of that seemed like nothing when he broke up with me so now im having second thoughts about everything cry .......... I was at work and i couldnt get my mind off of him, and how everything happened......... he said that he would take it now........ and that he loves me and he will make it up to me....... but how can u make something up like this stare .......... im still hurt and its been eating at me........... >.> Ds has been there for me while everything was happening........ I called him from work and then he called me at home......... <.< yes i know im grounded but i dont think its in effect, i mean i still have my phone and my father said i can get calls after Sat. becuz im taking the SAT and he wants me to study............ so me and Ds chated and he made me feel better............ So we are back together, but i dont know for how long i mean, now im having doubts............... im thinking about things twice and i dont know if we can go back to the way things were............. i really dont know whats going to happen................. I dont know if we are really going to be together in rl............. I guess i have to see how things go............. x.X I have such a head pain from all of this s**t........... *looks down* And the thing is........ i am now stuck between 2 guys that i like, hell love heart ............ and i dont know what to do anymore gonk ................ I cant tell Zero(my "bf" wink that then he will really get depress........ he is going thru things right now and he needs me.......... but if he keeps hurting me....... we are going to have a problem....... so i guess ill just help him thru it and hopefully everything will turn out right, and hopefully i can pick one of the 2 guys and just be happy.................. *looking down* i just dont know which one yet............... stare crying