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Feels like its that time,
Where feelings creep up on ya and you're sent into a deep wave of thoughts.

Was it really that hard to just say, "no, i have a best friend?"
I really would have enjoyed continuing the conversation, even if that was the case.
Or perhaps you found that was the ending point, at that question, which is fine too I suppose.

I can't really expect things to go back to the way they were, but I felt it was worth asking.
We can't really be the same people we were a year ago, but I can't see if I've really changed from who I was at 15.

I just want to feel something more than this,
That this, ultimately, is it.
But isn't it?
I'm supposed to just be okay with that, because we were estranged for so long,
Because no matter what, I wouldn't even stand a chance being a mere "friend" with you.

I guess it would be too much like rubbing salt in the wound.
Perhaps my dream's deeper meaning was true.

This is it.
And so with that, farewell.