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I'm.. more than... confused... I mean.. it can't be this easy, can it?
I mean the years and years and years of searching...
It couldn't just be this easy, I mean.. It just can't be this easy.
Whenever I think about him my heart beats loudly enough for me to hear it in my ears..
Whenever I think about loosing him, or him moving farther away tears well in my eyes..
Thinking of the possibility that some day in the future I'll be able to see him, and hug him, and be near him makes my heart swells and threatens to pop.

.... so it can't be this easy right? The similarities are just coincidences.. just like the hole in my chest disappearing is a coincidence.

It's just NOT that easy to find your soulmate.. right? It's.. not.. I mean.. I've heard of people searching their entire life trying to find their other half and failing..

So I can't just.. be that lucky. I don't deserve it out of all things..
It's just... a coincidence..

Hahaha! Listen to me, I'm a wiccan trying to tell myself that there are such things as coincidences...
.. I'm partly freaking out..
Okay maybe full freaking out..
I'm going to go pass out now.