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There she goes...Showing up in my dreams again.

It wasn't much this time, but it was still enough to drive me absolutely mad.
Why does this keep happening?

It started off with a normal dream, the details of which are rather foggy to me, but then she called me. She actually called me.
I was happy to pick up and talk to her, but then she just started talking about the ridiculous hobbies she had picked up within the past months since we separated. Of course this rather saddened me, and I tried to convince her out of it, but she wouldn't listen to me...She never did listen to me, though, come to think of it.
She even has me questioning whether or not she's even truly been alone all this time or if she's been out screwing around with other men all along.
And again, I lost it. Went off on her in a blind rage and wouldn't stop, and I hated it.

I can only hope and pray that I'm wrong. I can only pray that she's kept our last promise to each other. If she even cares at all anymore, that is.

If she has any respect for our past at all, she'll remember what I'm talking about.

But why does she even keep showing up? What the hell is going on here?

Why then, since I'm so happy with who I have and where I am now, does she keep haunting me? I wish I knew.

I STILL can't understand...