...It hurts so much to see you like this. To see you turn all this pain in on yourself, when you never deserved any of it in the first place.
Why did it have to be you? Why couldn't it have been me? All I want is to help, to make it better, to prove that people can change and that I can be a better person from now on, but the more times I try the harder you push me away.
I should be the one suffering, not you...
To have so much pain, though. To not trust anyone, and to feel like everyone's plotting against you...I understand. I know that feeling as well as you do. We've always known each other so well, and while we may not have always understood each others' struggles, I believe now we can.
We're both hurting, but we can help each other, I just know we can.
I've been sitting here, waiting for you to come back all this time, and it pains me so much to see you suffering like this, to see you killing yourself in such a way...I believe we can understand each other in a way that no one else possibly can. No matter what happens to us, our paths always cross again, we always come back to each other...There's a bond between us that simply cannot be broken, and the longer we're apart, the worse the damage becomes.
So I'm pleading with you. Begging you. Come back. See the good we can do for each other, and see how much I still love you, and how much I always have.
Christina, if you are ever to read this, understand that I love you dearly, and I would never repeat the same mistakes again. All I want anymore is you. You are my one goal in life, my reason for living. So please, let me be yours, just one last time.
I want you to be happy, Christina. And I want to do whatever I can to make sure you are...
I love you Christina. I wish you nothing but the best with your finals, and I'm so sorry things are the way they are.
If you ever need me, you know exactly where to find me. I never went anywhere. I've always been here. Waiting for you...And I always will be.
Forever, my love.
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Just random babblings of myself, who I am, who I once was, where I came from and how exactly I came to be where I am today.
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