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sick of feeling like a crazy person,
but knowing i'll never stop feeling like this because i'm a ******** lunatic.

i don't think i realized how crazy i am
until a short while ago.

and it freaks me out because i blend in with society so easily,
they would never guess.

i hate that i've been dancing with you in my head,
when really i've been dancing with myself.

but still, ******** you,
you can pick up the phone and call or send a text
or even a ******** snap chat..

quit looking at me like i'm a ghost,
when i'm the one whose missing you the most.

precious died but i'm not going to text you that
cause you're too busy to answer a call when i'm considering doing something awful,
so why would you care after something awful has already happened?