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Basically what the title says...
I've been on gaia for about a year now
but I have never really made a journal
and I suppose I need a place to put all my stupid thoughts
besides keeping them in my head
so that my head dosent explode

I've had so many thoughts lately
but the thoughts werent going anywhere
Too much thinking of cutting
and of suicide
its hard to stop
much easier said than done

I suppose nothing in the world worth having
is easy to achieve
although

I still hate myself for getting myself into this mess
-sigh-
several months later
I'm still thinking of my ex
she probably still wants to kill me
but then again
if I didnt break up with her
there really was no telling what
the relationship could have caused me to do to myself
gah...
why am I still stuck up on this topic
its over already...