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My name is Wendy. I am 20 years old, still trying to grasp at this whole concept of "life", trying to take in, learn everything, trying not to ******** up, without knowing what the hell I really am doing.
Not like this s**t is taught in school or anything, no one's taught how to apply for colleges, grants, scholarships, jobs, how to pay bills, nothing. NOTHING. Not even how to apply for a credit card and what really goes with buying a credit card.
Why? Why are we thrown into the "real world" after school? Some people have always lived in this harsh reality, some people don't, sheltered and taken care of by their parents or loved ones. But usually, after school, when school is all done, your parents throw you out of the house. Then what? You get a job, and then what?
Learn to manage your money, live off of hot dogs and ramen noodles, some times.
It's ******** stupid....older generations just assume the younger generations know what the ******** we're doing, that the world out there is just as easy as it was for them.
But it's not, how often do you see some one of my age living on there own, completely on there own? It's almost impossible...


I'm finally leaving my parent's house, in....6 days to be specific, to a new state, huge city, only familiar with a handful of people. I have to get a job, hopefully land one within the first month, but...what if something goes wrong? What if I can't land a job, for some reason, or I get sick, or I get hit by a car crossing the street, then what? Get shipped back to my parent's? Or end up homeless in a huge city, left to defend my pride and the little food I would be hopeful to find?
I don't know how to pay a bill, I barely understand how to file my taxes.
Why am I leaving everything I have come to know and understand, the comfortable roof over my head given to me by my parents? Why can't I get a job in the shitty little town I'm in?
Why does everything have an impact on everything?

Why am I so scared to be on my own? Because I barely know what the ******** I'm doing. And why is that? Because I had to focus on division, or something.

Bunch of bullshit. This world is.