I've realized I want to be a better person.
Not by anyone elses standards, but by my own. I want to live for myself. Not my boyfriend or my parents or teachers or anyone but myself.
To me that means setting my own goals. All the major events in my life were decided by someone else's good intentions. I'm starting to carve my own path and have control over my life.
I want to be a better painter, a better pixel artist, a better gardener. I want to play the piano like my gramma Joyce, and just do what makes me happy.
I've read a lot about self improvement, watched a lot of inspirational things, shows and anime. Bojack Horseman and Mob Psycho 100 especially. I'm what this guy calls an impostinator (https://waitbutwhy.com/2015/03/procrastination-matrix.html) i do things that feel like progress but arent actually moving me towards my goals; writing this for example. Researching excessively without applying that knowledge is also another way to fool myself into thinking I'm busy without actually doing any hard work.
I'd like to change this, and that starts with a routine built around a very clear goal.
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