Life is like a big hidous burn acrossed my face, that will not get better, and I cant cover up or get rid of it. Everyday I get reminded that I'm just not good enuff. Even whin I walk down the street somthing reminds me.
Everytime someone menchins there dad I'm reminded. Reminded how he left and doesent call. How he forgets holidays, and how I've never herd him say happy birthday or marry chrismas. How he would rather be with Cathy my stepmother, then even talk to his kid. I'm reminded how bad I would like to just bust in his knees with a baceball bat, and leave him on the side of the road. I'm reminded of my hate for him. It makes me think about whin I was yong an would look at the cars passing by, just hoping it was my dad; coming to say that he wasent going to leave and that he does care, and that he was looking for us. Wondering what he was like. Now that I know who that man realy is I'm just mad at my self for caring. For spending my time wondering.
Everytime some talks about love i'm reminded. How no one loves me, I know people love me like a friend, but time after time I open my heart somone slams it shut, then it brakes alittle. Everytime I here how grate somones boy/girlfriend are, I'm reminded how broken my heart realy is. From all the times I tell someone how I feel. I get shot down, and that makes it harder to say it next time. Although i know I'll regret not saying it, so I do and it happens agen.
Everytime someone ses how grate there grades were/are I'm reminded, how I work my a** off. I study, I do my work, I try my best and fail. The first samester of this past 2005-2006 school year, and you know what i got; not one ******** credit. this will be my theard, yes theard year as a softmore. Even though I try and worked my a** off, and tryed I got nothing for my work. How am I going to get into a collage, with my transcript, no collage will wont me. It makes me feel like I'll never get to be what I wont to be whin I get out of high school, and now that I have a job I feel like anyday I'm ganna ******** up and get fired.
MY LIFE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!
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Everytime someone menchins there dad I'm reminded. Reminded how he left and doesent call. How he forgets holidays, and how I've never herd him say happy birthday or marry chrismas. How he would rather be with Cathy my stepmother, then even talk to his kid. I'm reminded how bad I would like to just bust in his knees with a baceball bat, and leave him on the side of the road. I'm reminded of my hate for him. It makes me think about whin I was yong an would look at the cars passing by, just hoping it was my dad; coming to say that he wasent going to leave and that he does care, and that he was looking for us. Wondering what he was like. Now that I know who that man realy is I'm just mad at my self for caring. For spending my time wondering.
Everytime some talks about love i'm reminded. How no one loves me, I know people love me like a friend, but time after time I open my heart somone slams it shut, then it brakes alittle. Everytime I here how grate somones boy/girlfriend are, I'm reminded how broken my heart realy is. From all the times I tell someone how I feel. I get shot down, and that makes it harder to say it next time. Although i know I'll regret not saying it, so I do and it happens agen.
Everytime someone ses how grate there grades were/are I'm reminded, how I work my a** off. I study, I do my work, I try my best and fail. The first samester of this past 2005-2006 school year, and you know what i got; not one ******** credit. this will be my theard, yes theard year as a softmore. Even though I try and worked my a** off, and tryed I got nothing for my work. How am I going to get into a collage, with my transcript, no collage will wont me. It makes me feel like I'll never get to be what I wont to be whin I get out of high school, and now that I have a job I feel like anyday I'm ganna ******** up and get fired.
MY LIFE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!
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