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Do you wish to see the Darkness of my Heart?
Sometimes I cant even stand my own journal writings, are you sure you can? Are you really sure? Just checking before you hit that button down there...
Thinking...
I think to much at night...
it annoys me
Its because of this thinking...that I cant get to sleep
it also causes other horrible things...
I just cant stop thinking...

then some thoughts came to me one night...
I thought that people really dont need a person like me
after all I make everything uneven
in every group I hang out with
its like I dont belong there
or belong anywhere for some reason...
I still think I was supposed to die in the house fire
it was three years ago already...
But I dont think I'm supposed to be here
I should have died in that fire...






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xXBloodEclipseXx
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commentCommented on: Tue Jul 11, 2006 @ 09:07pm
Not many people desreve to die. And your definatly not one of them. You could probably care less sinse this is comming from somone you don't know, but you don't desreve to die or feel that you should. If you need someone to talk to, pm me or we can chat in the After Dark. You seems really cool and are a kind person.


commentCommented on: Thu Jul 20, 2006 @ 07:15am
I agree with her. If you died, I'd lose a good friend and that would make me very sad, and I'd miss you. sad



Alexis99
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gwennieofsidhe
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 23, 2006 @ 05:49pm
The same thing happens to me sometimes. You wonder about all the times you were hanging out with people and if maybe you did something wrong or upsetting. Or you think some of the things you said were stupid. You think about the people you envy and how you compare. And then you realize you're only upset about a few things...but the more you think...the more things you find to be upset about. You can't live in the past though. You have to live for the present. You need to tell yourself...you know what...sometimes I screw up and sometimes I say dumb things and do dumb things...but there are people who care about me regardless. It's easy to forget how many people you care about and how many people care about you. It's easier to remember your flaws and hurts and pains. The beautiful thing about the night is that it's a time of peace and gentle beauty. It will bring you to a brighter tomorrow.


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