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Is my heart slowly mending, or quickly tearing?
The pain is unbearable,
knowing that I'm dying inside,
that I still see you,
that for some reason,
I still feel the same way as I did before.

No use askin' me why,
'cause this girl is just confused as you are,
'Cause this girl just refuses to find out
How to stop it, once and for all.

How can I live like this,
knowing it'll be the end of me,
end of my heartbeat,
the twisting of my mentality,
crazy to just insane,
because of all the pain,
the thoughts, making my mind wander away,
from my studies, from my stories,
that even I can't make a good deep line of poetry.

How do I make it stop? Do you know?
Do you know the cure, so I can let this pain go?
Do you know when the moon, which lets the rain keep falling,
will send me a final calling?
Deluge myself into a deep trance?
And in my dreams I would dance,
dance, dance, dance,
'till all the feelings are away,
'till my heart is finally at bay,
yet in reality it has been taken away.

Have I really commited so many sins,
That my life, that my happiness is so dim?
And even when I somewhat repented,
Some act like I never meant it?
Is that why my life is so grim?

Alone, will I always be,
heartbroken, as I always seem?
Left out in an empty field, with the bugs glowing bright,
remembering that's how my heart used to feel?
But no way in hell I can believe it's real...