eh.... this morning I was talking to one of my friends and I told him I was sorry of always making fun of him and being a bad friend.... if he was reading this right now then he would know..
anyways, after that I was talking to a really good friend of mines. she's kinda like my sister and we've been close. she told me that some guy she knew told him that he liked her. I was kinda sad cause I knew the guy and he was also one of my good friends. I kinda have a crush on him and stuff... so yah. I was kinda disappointed... I mean now after talking him to him for so long... I've realized I'm nothing special to him... just another girl that happened to come across his path... some other girl who would never come close to touching his heart. I can't stand the fact that whenever I like someone they end up liking someone else from me. I'm sick and tired at the fact that the people I don't like or just like as a friend like me... and then when I tell them that I don't feel the same way... they bring on a fit. I hate it that my own love life can't even go on smoothly and that everything else seems to be getting harder and harder with every single breath I take... I want to die... there are some other things that have been bothering me but i cannot say because it's too person... i have to go now... bye
 Mari Lambo · Tue Sep 19, 2006 @ 08:32pm · 0 Comments |
