Gawd... I'm thinking about him again... and I don't want to.
why can't I just like someone who lives around my place??? Why does it always have to be someone over the net or in Virginia gonk ...???!!!
*sigh* I know why I like him but why???
I know plenty of guys who are nice a sweet... but he's different...
I'm sad but happy at the fact that he has a girlfriend. sad because I know I could never be with him but I just look afar. Happy because he has someone to love and in return love him back
I don't exactly love him right now. Love is too strong for the feelings I have for him. Let's just go with, "I like him ALOT"
I feel like I wish I never told him that I liked him because it's so hard for my to talk to him now. Usually when I hug him, it's only out of brotherly and sisterly love... but now... I get butterflies when he gives me hugs....
I hate having the feeling when I feel loved in a different way...
I don't know why but I'm the type of person who doesn't except love if it's not the way I feel. He loves me in a brotherly sisterly way, while I lov---- LIKE him in a different way... in a way like... I want you to hug me and tell me you lov---LIKE me the way I like you. I'm sad at the fact that I feel like I actually matter to him. He makes me feel special and I feel like I could trust him with my like or something. Maybe it's just a teeanger thing... all I know is that I hate the feeling but I love it all at once. I don';t like the pain but I enjoy keeping the feeling in me.
He's the online guy that I've met on gaia that actually pays attention to me. who actually respects me. I feel like if I walked through a crowd everyone would ignore my except for him. He's so smart... decieving me into thinking I was special. I'm really not.... and I don't like the lies but yet... it makes me feel good inside.... I hate lov---liking someone. because in the end... it always hurts
 Mari Lambo · Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 09:24pm · 0 Comments |
