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I finally did it. I broke up with Jon. It hurt to do it, because I still love him. If I didn't I wouldn't have cried almost all of last night. I wouldn't still be crying now. After almost a year, nothing had changed. He still made promises he couldn't keep. He still didn't think before he acted. He still....he still didn't make me feel like I was important. All I wanted from him was a ******** phone call. Not one where I say "call me". But one where he felt like calling me just because. One where he actually wants to call me and talk to me. But he couldn't be bothered. He couldn't be bothered to call his own girlfriend. It's really sad when I spend more time with my friends than him. It's really sad when my friend Alex puts more effort into seeing me than Jon did. It's really sad that people out of state call me more often that Jon did! My heart hurts....because I know I still love him. Because I know he can still make me happy. But he hurts me....all the time....I don't know what to do. We were so happy at first...but then he got lazy. He got too busy with everything else....