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she's addicted to nicotine patches.
she`s addicted to nicotine patches.

i have realized that i am addicted to addictions. and i also think i`m slowly rotting without my friends. mainly my friends that i am always with, amy & mattheus. i feel so repulsed at everything that i think i might vomit. i`m so weird. i noticed that my addictions go in order.

+burning things
+stabbing my arms with needles/compasses
+cutting myself
+smoking
+carving myself
+slicing my legs
+carving chunks out of my arms
+burning my wrists
+sex
+slicing my scars
+carving chunks out of my arms
+bulimia
+anorexia
+bulimia 1/2 time, anorexia the other 1/2
+biting my nails
+biting the skin off my fingers

i need something. i feel like im rotting. i have let my mind go blank so i can`t feel and i still do feel... i just don`t know why.... or more like let myself know.