Went to court. Long story short, the haven't filed anything yet, so there is nothing on my case just yet. Everything is at the police station. This might be good, since they are reviewing it, so there is a chance that they will just drop the case.
I am so greatful that my dad posted bail, otherwise I'd be in jail still, possibly for weeks or even months. It all depends on that I get my case in or not.
I think they may have done it on purpose just to let me rot if I had never posted bail. They don't even know that I am out, so that is most likely the case.
Right now I'm feeling a little better, I just want to get everything over with instead of having it dragged on and on and on. Raymond is going to be leaving in about 16 hours. I'm going to miss him so much, I don't know what I am going to do without him. Its like walking with only one leg.
I want him to be safe, and I want him to clear his head. Hopefully get a job, make money, and buy a car. He has 125 days from tomorrow until my graduation, so he is going to be back before then.
Or so I hope.
I'm just worried about some things, such as temptation. But if Raymond is going to be true to me like he says, I really don't have to worry, but I still do nonetheless. I can't help it. I did so much already, and I want to make it better. I want to start over again and I can't wait to do it.
he still loves me, and he tells me that, I'm just so scared that it may chance. Since I know for a fact now that my feelings won't change. I don't give a ******** about any other guys. Even if they do ask me out. (Which will happen once hell freezes over)
I shouldn't worry, I just want him safe.
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