Heh. I've never been very good at keeping diaries and stuff, which is why there ain't nothing of any interest in here. Not that me keeping a record of stuff that I do would be interesting anyway, but oh well xp
Soooo... I dunno. I finally got a job the other day (actually, I've had the job for a while but I hadn't started working yet) and... it's okay, I guess. It's in OSHC (Outside School Hours Care) so I get to play with kiddies :3
Unfirtunately, the hours aren't great - 2.45 pm to 6.00 pm every weekday - and it cuts into my free time a lot, but I suppose any job would do that.
I still can't believe that I'm employed - honestly, when it comes to IRL stuff, I'm the laziest, most apathetic person in existence eek
And I'm still surprised that someone is willing to employ me xd I sent out loads of applications, and filled in loads of online forms, and I didn't get ANY replies. Not one. I think it's a bit rude, but whatever.
(The OSHC thing didn't really count, because it was at a sort of recruitment day, and I didn't really fill in any applications - well, I suppose I did, but... it still doesn't count.)
Anyway. Enough about that.
The watermeat festival begins tomorrow, and I'm one of the security people. I think I'm only down on the list to do forums, but I'm going to be Towns as well. We're supposed to prevent people from crashing the festival and spreading darknrgy, and to keep people calm if 02 or Flarn pop in, which they almost definitely will. If they do pay us a visit, we have to notify any online Zurg and the security leaders.
Of course, knowing Towns it will be impossible for us to actually do anything if the people are determined to make a disturbance, but... well, we can only try to deal with it.
*sigh* Unfortunately, I know quite a bit about the regulars in Towns - in the "ufo waiting areas" - but most of them don't really know anything about me ._____.
Well, it's my fault. I'm too damn shy. I prefer to sit there and listen in on their conversations rather than join in them myself. And... I dunno. I'm scared of talking to people. Sort of paranoid about being judged sweatdrop
I should try harder to get to know them. I know I should. I want to.
But some of them actually scare me, and I'm afraid of... I don't know... rejection? Because they're important people, and I'm just another hanger-on. A lucky hanger-on, but still not important or interesting or anything.
Yeah, that's another thing... when I do actually talk to people, I don't know what to say. I have absolutely no conversational skills whatsoever. It's like... when I was in high school, at lunch time I'd sit with my friends but, instead of joining the conversation, a lot of the time I'd just sit there reading a book, and look up ocasionally to add something in. I didn't do this all of the time of course, but it happened more frequently as the months and years went on. And my friends didn't mind at all - they're really sweet and accommodating :3
But that doesn't really get you very far in Gaia - especially in an event like this.
It's weird, actually, that I spend so long on Gaia (a forum/chat-based site) and at the same time I have difficulty in talking to people neutral
I'm sorry if I'm being emoish or whatever, but this is my journal and these are things that have been on my mind for quite a while. Hopefully after reading this you feel like you know me a bit better now x3
...and before I posted this, stuff happened that made me feel a lot better about everything. I fail xd
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