<center>Dispair
As dispair creeps deep into my heart I feel the love for someone slipping away as my heart slowly turns from happiness to utter depression, I places my hand against my chest and feel nothing but emptyness from where once love sat within my heart, Oh dispair why do you haunt me so why not just let me alone, but I know the worse is yet to come for I see the one I love with another and he seems not to come hither, oh dispair why must you haunt me so.
Depths of my heart
With in the depths of my heart is an emptyness that seems nothing is able to fill so I sit within my lonelyness only to find that nothing has changed and it seems nothign will change, My heart cries out for the one I love but it seems as if no one seems to care about no one but their selves, so I sit and wait I wait for death to come and take me away hoping and praying that it comes sooner then later, I sit within the lonelyness of my mind thinking of you and what shall not be mine, what have I truely been fighting for is what I am fighting for, for nought or does it really have meaning or is it just there to be out of reach, oh what shall I do with the lonelyness that resides within my heart what shall I do with the lonelyness of my mind, Oh what shall I do with the lonelyness that plauges my soul.
My Heart
I gave to you my heart to hold, I gave to you my soul to keep and what did you do. You cheated on me I saw you with another, so I saw my heart burst in your hand I saw my soul leave your heart. What happened to the love we once had what happened to the man I once loved. I see the world for what it is, I see the world for what it is. I see you for what you are, I see you for what you are. Your nothing but a blob of blood a speck of dust a blob of blood a speck of dust. I owe you nothing but you owe me everything now what do you say to me when I look over your dying body all you do is beg me for mursy.
My Heart and Soul
Here I lie wating for the one I love to come rescue me, My eyes just stare into space while I wait hoping and praying, that he will come rescue me from the depths of my mind. My heart calls out to him as my mind wonders in space. I look but do not see, I hear but do not respond, My soul urns for him to rescue me. All I am and all I'll be is with him and I can't wait to be in his arms once again,This I say with heart full of love and respect, I owe him my life and I shall protect him till my last breath. In my heart he shall stay while my mind continues its treck, I know hes out there somewhere. But I know not where and I hope he is safe for I shall die if ever I lost him.
Hearts Abbyss
Through the abbyss of my heart I serch for any knowen love that might be left within it as I serch I find the friends and family part and slowly sift through the pages of it looking serching for some kind of answer, serching for some sort of clue to help me find a way to get the happy and care free part of my heart back...
I slowly drift into what might seem to be sleep but its really the fact that I am in such deep thought that my body has shut down just to concertrat on the task at hand......
So Utterly Alone
When I lie down to sleep I find myself crying wishing that your were beside me, I finally fall asleep after crying half the night with my head apon a damp pillow I shift and toss in restless slumber as my mind wonders through the chanles of its rivers, I find my mind stoping on an image of you that I have etched into my heart and mind, The image show me and you in eachothers arms and so deeply in love that I know its not true for you are not with me but with another, and so I find myself waking in the morn only to see that my dream was so untrue for you are not here and I am just so utterly alone.
Urning
I look up at the stars above I think of the one I truely love, my heart calls out to him my soul reaches for him and my mind settles on his face, I draw an image of him in the stars above, but when I bring my sight back to earth I see he is not there, why must my heart soul and mind be so crule to me why must they play tricks on me why can't they let me be, why must my urning be for someone that does not want me.
Wondering
Sitting here thinking of past present and future not really sure what to do now, I sit and think about the past and what happened so long ago and I stop on one image and that is of being so burtialy asulted when I was 7, then I think of the present and wonder what is to become of my heart thinking about it seems to make the world just spin out of control, then I think about the future and whats to come of me will I still be around to hear people talking or shall I be already gone, so I sit and wonder whats to become of me.
Purest Love
What is a dream but a figment of the mind, what is love but the deepest and most persious thing in the world, now if only you would accept the love I hold within me and would let us be as one once more, my heart would glow so much brighter and yet you turn and snarl at me when I say my love is true.
People Come & People Go
People come and people go, I find them here and see them there. Should I chance it and go up and talk or should I stay here and keep my hellos to myself, I am shy and I don't know why. What makes me talk and what makes me not. My head hung low tears in my eyes I know I saw that one lastngiht. Now I see her and now I know I should have said hi when I had the chance lastnight, seeing her there on the ground and the cop says it was suicide. I wish I would have said something to see if she was alright. I turn to see the next victum of the night and I see it's the guy that stood next to me, he has been in a crash an accident so it seems. But was there something more to this? I see a bottle of pills on the dash, can the cop not see it there or does he just not wish to see it. I know I feel the pain, but for some reason I seem to know what went through their minds right before they died. To know what's there and what is not is the most painful thing you could ever want. My heart it achs, my heart it screams. What in the world is this pain I feel? I knew them not but still the same I see the pain on their faces, I wish I could make the visions go away. My arm looks like good prey and I see a knife within arms length so I start to slice to watch the blood make it's way around my wrist, to make the pain go away I cut and slice, I dig the knife deep within one place. As my blood forms a puddle I stop and think is this truely my place to see the deaths of so many and for some reason, not to be able to cross over to the plains I wish to return to. Why must I walk, alone in the world? Why must I see this pass? Why can't I leave this place? The world they call the Earth... The knife lies deep within my arm so I start to pull the blade, watching it cut along my vain. I close my eyes as tears stream down my face. The blade now rests in the crevis of my elbow, I turn the blade and slowly take it around slicing through every vain. I open my eyes and see my muscles a grin crosses my face as I say to myself. "What brought you here now takith you away", as I pass out from blood loss I come to wake the next day my arm bandaged up with stitches in place. I open my eyes feeling the pain to see an ive giving me blood. Tears stream down my face once more as I think to myself. "Damn I have been saved.." I growl from this and wish they would have left me, just then I see who rescued me. Much to my surprize it was the spirits of the 2 that died the night before. They said in a soft voice you are still needed you must save others like us. I sigh and lower my eyes not wanting to stay. Why must I be trapped on this hell we call Earth, why can't I return to my home on the other side? Why must I be cursed to remain here when all I wish is to be back home?
By: Stephanie Ann Millette
AKA: Stephy</center>
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