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can you feel my heart racing , my minded flooded with thoughts and memories . solutions to problems that can never be solved by anything or anyone?

can you see the pain i hold deep inside of my soul , the loneliness that tugs at me when i sleep and when my dreams unfold?

my heart cries for someone to help me, someone to take me away from the endless pain. but still i stand alone within my own home in shadows of eternal darkness.

can you see that i hide my tears in the back of my soul and spirit. i hide them well and change my thoughts and force a fake smile upon my thoughts to put on a mask to hide the real me and show you that what you say means nothing to me?

but when in reality each word you say each thought you think and do not reveal but is clearly written upon your face cuts a wound so deep that no one can heal except time itself and isolation within?

do you not understand the horrible things that come to my own thoughts in search of a way to make you smile to make you say that you are proud of the things i have done?

the thoughts i think are not clear to me but they are full of spite rage and remorse that perhaps i think in my own way to disappear from the waking world.


but i shake the thoughts away in hopes for a better day in which i will feel no hurt no pain and can only become stronger and more sane. for in my thoughts i know i am strong even though sometimes the thought of that is gone, i know one day i will rise to become some one greater than even you and everyone. someone great that holds power within and has shown the world her true power , hopes, thoughts and dreams she always held within and one day made them into something great.