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I'm completely and utterly blown away. I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm just like 'HOLY ******** s**t. That is TOTALLY unbelievable'

Now... you're probably like 'Wtf is she talking about!?' And you'd never guess in a million years. But basically, I was having a tough time dealing with some stuff in my life, and I wasn't sure what the hell to do, so my boss, Nick, gave me a program to get through, that involved quite a bit of reading. Sure, it LOOKED simple enough, but Nick's programs can be quite deceptive. Because I didn't really wanna just brush it off. I wanted to actually GET something out of it.

And I'm happy to say that a week later, after all my wanting to die and pounding my head against the wall, I'm actually feeling a lot better. Nick is amazing... and he really taught me something valuable about responsibility. It's a problem I've had all my life... and I didn't even really realize what it was I was messing up on until tonight. I swear to god I thought I'd never figure it out. I went to work all depressed and ready to give up on everything... and now I'm just so happy, I can't stop grinning! I feel like I can finally move on now... ^^

And I still have James... which always makes me happy, no matter what I'm doing. Even when everything else is sucking (if only temporarily) I always have the thought of him to keep me going. When it seems like I have nothing left, he's always the one who makes me strong enough to keep going. I don't think I'll ever be able to stop loving him... even if things don't work out.

Oh yeah... and I got my cell phone back! I got a call yesterday from the person who found it... who happened to be my co-worker's boss's boss... if that makes any sense. We have an interesting management system... believe me. But anyway, I'd never spoken to him before, so I didn't know what to expect. He was soooooo nice!! I was surprised! I liked him almost immediately. He was just really nice. I really felt like he actually cared. He wasn’t cold, or business like, or anything. He was just… well, there. If that makes any sense. XD

Anywayz… he told me his wife had found the phone in the bathroom (right where I thought I’d left it… grrr…) and that they’d turned off the phone because they didn’t have any time to find me at the moment, and then later on he found out who I was, but he didn’t know what I looked like. And then he called my friend Ben (omg… it’ll be frickin’ hilarious the next time I talk to him… ehehehe… sweatdrop ), who gave him my phone number, so he was able to call my house. Although he coulda just scrolled through the contact list and found my home number that way… but I guess he didn’t think of that. XD

And so the next day when I came into work I found this package in my In-basket… and I opened it to see my cell phone all snuggly wrapped in bubble wrap! I thought it was funny… but it was so cool. I’m so happy to have that phone back… and he was really nice about getting it back to me. I thought that was really cool. ^^

Well… aside from all that, I’m pretty content. Just took a shower, and I gotta fold the laundry. It’s kinda late, and I still need to finish that before I go to bed, so I’m off now. Good night! wink