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I really good day has ended depressingly. I was hanging out with Jamie <.< >.> alone whee heart and then some guys came and took her away, quite literally. They threw her in the car and I came. I feel bad for doing this but I asked them to drop me off at the train station. I think Jamie is fine but you can never tell with people like that. I'd hate myself if anything bad happened to her and I wasn't there to do anything, but I could have been. After they dropped me off I ran strait to mikes house after trying to call my parents for a ride. That train station doesn't have a clock or a schedule. I got to mikes house but they were sleeping, so I ran to the train station and found that the next train was in 5 minutes, Lucky. Caught the train home and here I am now, still worried. I think about her to much, everyday without fail and not purposely. >.> obsession....

Song stuck in my head now, nothing on my back, by Sum 41. Does that make sense for this situation..

Was happiness a fad?
Or was it in the lost in found again behind the issues.
It might not be so bad,
We're all addicted to our tragedy,
I guess it's what it had to be.

With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.
Matter of in fact,
It's harder still when you're around.
With nothing on my back,
I can't help but drown.

I might as well belong to both of you. [*I'll make this song work, she has split personalities*]
And the mess you always seem to drag me through.
That night forever always haunting me.
But I guess it is what it's supposed to be,
But spare your thoughts of sympathy.

With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.
Matter of in fact,
It's harder still when you're around.
With nothing on my back,
I can't help but drown.

With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.
With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.
With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.
With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.

With nothing on my back,
It's still enough to bring me down.
My mind's about to crack,
Cause what I thought could not be found.
Matter of in fact,
It's harder still when you're around.
With nothing on my back,
I can't help but drown.


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P.S. Jamies new boyfriend who I'm talking to now said:
she says you two just "fell out of love" but that you were still awesome
this is the best reason for her dumping me yet.

[edit] Grr... what does that mean, how O.o gonk