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Everyday I worry about my man and my own mental health. Everyday I worry about something that I shouldn't worry about. I wish I didn't worry so much about the little things that flourish my life. Last night I cried over many things. I wish I didn't cry anymore, but when I try to hold it back my heart hurts and the middle of my hands go numb. Oh how I wish I was better. I've been sick like this since I was a little girl. What do I have you ask? Two things, mild depression and AS (Aspergers Syndrome). I wish I didn't have these things...If I didn't I'd be a happier person and I would know more about the world around me...But it's too late to drop the stuff now, I can't. It's almost as if I've been born with a handicap. However, last night I told myself some positive things with a smile that made me feel better. They were reassurancing words; like "he loves you and always will, you will marry and have a wonderful life together". Even stuff like this "You are you, and no one else can replace you. You are your own special person with special works and miracles no one else can do." It's the best you can do when your depressed. But remember, if you ever feel depressed, try and tell yourself some reassuring things that are good about yourself. Good things will happen if you let them.

Sincerely, Mercury