If you blame yourself, you'll slowly die on the inside. I'm dramatic, and I know that. But it's hard if you can't cry that often, and you've lost someone and blame yourself for it. I yell at people, and get angry easily because I know I can't cry over it. I've always been afraid of crying in front of so many people because I used to do that a lot. It's not very hard to make me cry. I'm crying right now, and I don't even know why.
And now, to know that there are people that care and to know that I was too afraid to see it makes me want to cry even more. But I'm laughing. I'm laughing at everything I always cried about. I'm laughing because I convinced myself that I was depressed. I'm laughing because I always hated myself for not being good enough. I don't draw as good as my friend, and so I hated her for it because I was jealous. But I couldn't hate her because she's one of my friends. Plus, she tends to show off, and that adds on.
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But it's ridiculous. I won't give up on writing, since it's something I love. After all, why give up on a dream? People may laugh at me, people can call me stupid, but they're not worth my time. A certain someone's trying to pull strings until everything falls apart. But I've got something to tell you. Your pathetic attempt to break a friendship stronger than you'll ever have isn't going to work.
Some Person
oh and jasmine
sayin that mj doesnt care enuff to talk to brigette
shame on u
wtf is the problem wit u and mj
do u not like the guy jus becuz him and brig were together
or do u like him urself and thats why ur tryin to break em up icon_crying.gif icon_crying.gif icon_crying.gif
ohh booo hooo
thats rubbish
jus respect their decision
dont go eggin brige on and sayin
"oooo blah blah blah, he dont care about u so he dont talk to u""
if i remember correctly
ur the one who wanted to send brigette a howler thingy from the harry potter website sayin "ur as ugly as a troll"
friggin hypocrite
omg
we have enuff drama in this class already
we dont need any of this
"oohhh no one doesnt like us"
crap
if u want to go sulk about being shy and sing out ur sorrows and stuff
its called "the shower" or "the blues cafe"
lol
and dont be sendin bak a message gettin mad becuz
thats jus gonna be proving what im sayin
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hahahaha
Now, if you cared enough to read this whole thing, I want to say I'm sorry, and that you're a true friend. God bless you.
